Austin was born 11.52am on the 27/12/2017, 8 weeks early.

I was a premmie mum and it was a label I struggled with. I felt like my body failed me, I couldn’t protect him, I missed my bump, juggling all these feelings whist helplessly looking at my little man through the SCBU incubator.

I couldn’t hold him, I couldn’t feed him, my body was thrown into survival mode. It took everything to make my body work, produce milk and care for this little person that was so reliant on me. The midwives one after another telling me I needed to do this to keep him alive.

Day three my milk came in. I held him, he looked at me and held my finger and for the first time I felt like a mum. He needed me. I needed him.

4 weeks later we got to bring him home.

He’s almost 5 now and those memories are still there. Each year they fade. It took me a long time to like Christmas again.

He is our absolute world.

Austin Roscoe Gowin

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